It's 7th day...
Seven day of silence....
I wanna know
I wanna know wad r u thinking
I wanna what have u tought of
I wanna know what is ur inner feeling....

Each hour each day is doubled up
Not hearing anything from you, means u r feeling gd?
I trusted... I tought u will give me a ring on thurs...
Actually till now I hv the feeling you WILL call later at 10pm....
What if u don't?

Life is really unfair...

I really hope I hv the courage to die...
To disappear from this worldddd
Forever

Getting hooked onto Olivia Ong song
"Ready for love"

The Motion Video was cute too
olivia ong was one of our favourite singer
You listening to this?

Thursday is here soon...
5th Day ending...
6th Day coming....

How are you, hope you are eating well, sheltered not under the rain

11:11

somehow this thing struck me when im on train just now
on my way home from sch...
in everything, it takes 2 to clap
I did not do my part well that results you in not being any more happier
results in you not being more happier with me
Im a failure... Im a burden...
giving me up is the wise choice?

5th Day, im not crying heavily.... just sobbing a little
Buttttt....


I DO HOPE I CAN FOREVER BE YOUR BABY
TRULY YOUR BABY
<3

On the way home after class...
Soooo hungry!!!!
Oh my... faint at home not in public!!!!

Wednesday is waving at us already....
you waving at me?

How could you be so cruel?
not a single breath i hear from u...
not a single word or text
im starting to wonder....
wonderingggg

it it?
you sure?

Who do you treat me as?
i wanna know what are u thinking

did i cross your mind?
yeah i should be mature...
these stuffs are immature isit?

4th day since we see each other
4th day since we talked...

You say you don't know what you want...
so you dont know whether you want me or not?
I TRUSTED... I TRUSTED YOU
so i didnt wanna disturb you...
i trusted you will call me eventually
I TRUST YOU...

I TRUST THAT YOU ARE BUSY
I TRUST THAT YOU ARE THINKING
CAN I STILL TRUST THAT IM IN YOUR HEART STILL?
I TRUST BUT TELL ME...

i found out that to ease my agony... the best medicine is sleep
when im in deep sleep i do not think of anything...

my mum bought me a liang cha
how i wish its from you
im fantasizing you asking me "are you okay"

if these are not going to happen soon, make me sleep...
make me fall into a deep sleep....

LUCKY are you missing me?
CHEERY are you missing me?

How should i do
What should i do

i realize something when i woke up today...
i wasnt feeling anything when im asleep
but when the moment i open my eyes/wake up
the first thing came to my mind was you
the next second was a sigh....
heart feeling heavy sinking to the bottom of the bed...

but when im asleep i have gt no feel at all...
i love to be asleep for this period of time...
if only i could sleep and sleep and sleep for this period of time...

wake me up when nightmare is over

Monday is coming to an end........
its a lonely night a very very lonely night
looking at my phone while night
waiting for it to ring waiting for it to beep

it never ring it never beep....

im waiting.... waiting for u.....

busy with work?

im missing u....
i really cant bear....


have you found ur answer?
have i found my answer?
u are so near... yet soooo far.....
seeing u online yet i cant shout to u BABY..
standing downstair your place yet i cant call you BABY
standing outside your place yet i cant reach out to ur door bell
standing outside not knowing if we are just walls away
standing downstair ur place wondering if we are juz streets away...
staring at my phone browsing our photos in my phone
yet couldnt call you to say BABY HOWS WORK HOWS UR DAY


the pain is tearing me apart

MY LOVE

HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY... THAT I LOVE YOU....
this song....

Hello Monday...

when can i stop wearing spect!!!!

hahahahahaa~

let my work drown me...
but can your words get out of me while work drowning me?

radio playing david tao song a while ago...
made me think of u too~
haizzzz

you still remember how you said to me that
you cant live without me for even half a day...
so how can you leave me for more den a day...
somehow this is wad u mention/says before...

what about now?

LIGHT UP MY DARKNESS

LIGHT IT UP

LIGHT IT UP FOR ME

IM VERY AFRAID OF DARKNESS
ITS VERY VERY DARK.....

PLEASE LIGHT UP THE DARK

i came but u are not around...
seeing ur slipper outside the door
seeing ur room not lighted up
seeing ur bicycle outside your door step

how is ur dinner...

went for cycling a while...
im afraid if i cycle far my tyre would go out of air in the long run
and i wouldnt be able to go out for a cycle...
its sad isnt it...
i find it so silly to be thinking this way...

i will and forever be by your side when u are sick...
im not feeling good now, would u be by my side?
how could u not contact me over the past 2 days?
do u know how am feeling now?

im so hungry and lonely at home now
standing outside ur house yet no one is at home
or no one to open the door for me
im feeling realli lousy right now...

how are u and ur lively life???
actually its quite worth it... my sadness in exchange
with ur lively life
its really worth it... despite mi in real pain...

i was so silly to cycle to ur place... why would i do that...
juz couldnt control my leg

friday slp was quite a torture woke up to go for sch
sch ended at 6pm
came back...
do u know i've been waiting really waiting... any wadasapp tone
sms tone ring tone... im so looking forward to ur face name display
on my phone...

i nv expect we would be like this now
you spending ur own time i spending my own time
when we are not quarreling... its all the small quarrels
that build up to today...
i trusted u...
i really trusted u....
but whyyyy

every corner of the place we went before tgt
ur laughter is in my heart
looking at things we ate tgt
your image ur smile is in me..
but i turn around u are not beside me
when i smell someone with your perfume...
i've always hope u are juz beside me
i wish i could juz lie on ur shoulder n smell ur perfume...
u are in my heart 24/7 every hr min sec
but when i look around u are not around me at all....

i really really dunno how to survive tml....
oh dear...

do u know that i have this tought that its ok that my fren
dont care about me... bully me..
cause i have you...
but right now... i really dunno who is with me...
who is still with me....

Beeee just 2 days for me is like a week? a mth?
i don wanna do through this further...
I DONT WANT

:'C

i was looking into my fridge
saw a bag of apples....
it made me cry, reminds me of our apple juice...

would u be like me? seeing things and start thinking abt me?
start thinking abt our memories?

how can our memories be so easily be said as no happiness
how can our memories be so easily be conceded by you saying u hv no life

its 330 pm soon... when u wake up seeing im not by your bedside
would u feel odd would u think of me?
would u feel sad not seeing me?

how could u feel nth at all...

i felt so weak... pls gv me strength
i don wish to cry during my work...
seeing that photo infron of me on my work desk
easily make mi tear....

why and how should this thing happen on us?
BABY WHERE R U........

I was looking at ur blog posting
on your australia trip coming back sg...
u says daniel powter next plane home was a song that describe ur feeling
the lyrics says:
And you’re, you’re the only face I wanna see
That’s why I gonna be on the next plane home

now don u wanna see my face???

.....sobbing away again.....

給我一個理由忘記

A-LIN 給我一個理由忘記


雨都停了
yu dou ting le
这片天灰什么呢
zhe pian tian hui shen me ne
我还记得
wo hai ji de
你说我们要快乐
ni shuo wo men yao kuai le

深夜里的脚步声
shen ye li de jiao bu sheng
总是刺耳
zong shi ci er
害怕寂寞
hai pa ji mo
就让狂欢的城市陪我关灯
jiu rang kuang huan de cheng shi pei wo guan deng

只是哪怕周围再多人
zhi shi na pa zhou wei zai duo ren
感觉还是一个人
gan jue hai shi yi ge ren
每当我笑了
mei dang wo xiao le
心却狠狠的哭著
xin que hen hen de ku zhe

给我一个理由忘记
gei wo yi ge li you wang ji
那么爱我的你
na me ai wo de ni
给我一个理由放弃
gei wo yi ge li you fang qi
当时做的决定
dang shi zuo de jue ding
有些爱 越想抽离却越更清
you xie ai yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing，xi
而最痛的距离 是你不在身边
er zui tong de ju li shi ni bu zai shen bian
却在我的心里
que zai wo de xin li

当我走在去过的每个地方
dang wo zou zai qu guo de mei ge di fang
总会听到你那最自由的笑
zong hui ting dao ni na zui zi you de xiao
当我回到一个人住的地方
dang wo hui dao yi ge ren zhu de di fang
最怕看到冬天你最爱穿的那
zui pa kan dao dong tian ni zui ai chuan de na
件外套
jian wai tao

只是哪怕周围再多人
zhi shi na pa zhou wei zai duo ren
感觉还是一个人
gan jue hai shi yi ge ren
每当我笑了
mei dang wo xiao le
心却狠狠的哭著
xin que hen hen de ku zhe

给我一个理由忘记
gei wo yi ge li you wang ji
那么爱我的你
na me ai wo de ni
给我一个理由放弃
gei wo yi ge li you fang qi
当时做的决定
dang shi zuo de jue ding
有些爱
you xie ai
越想抽离却越更清晰
yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing xi
而最痛的距离 是你不在身边
er zui tong de ju li shi ni bu zai shen bian
却在我的心里
que zai wo de xin li

我找不到理由忘记
wo zhao bu dao li you wang ji
大雨里的别离
da yu li de bie li
我找不到理由放弃
wo zhao bu dao li you fang qi
我等你的决心
wo deng ni de jue xin
有些爱
you xie ai
越想抽离却越更清晰
yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing xi
而最痛的距离
er zui tong de ju li
是你不在身边 却在我的心里
shi ni bu zai shen bian que zai wo de xin li
我想你
wo xiang ni

I once posted :
Encryption.... J MPWF ZPV (I LOVE YOU)

you once posted :
J MPWF ZPV UPP (I LOVE YOU TOO)

at that point of time i was really really delighted
i was in the middle of the class...
i remembered vividly when i look at your reply a smile just appeared...
a rainbow just came up in my heart...
made me felt so happy in class... nt feeling tired in class

i rmb this vividly cause its really happiness...
true happinessss

but what you said ytd.. 2nd sept 2011 friday night....
just made all this unclear untrue but those happiness are so real...
i really wish you could reply or post
J MPWF ZPV UPP
again...

SERIOUS...

what is all this about? what are u thinking abt? fair to me?
it just made me go back to 3 years ago when you MIA and came back
when we are at the bishan reservoir...
you dunno wad u wan... blablabla

I am very afraid of the period of MIA days...
that is y i called so many times...
hv u ever understand this part
hv u stand in my shoe?
that period of MIA days... was realli realli BAD!!!!
i look at my calendar at that time where i put a love onto it
i look again where i put a heartbroken sign...
i juz cried... in office... its realli bad... as bad as i feel like
DIEING!!!
somehow is those days coming???
somehow i sense it...
tell me i have a wrong sense....

i fear when i call ur phone... its already overseas tone....

my eyes are in pain..
cant rub too hard...
due to too much crying....
its bad to my eyes... realli... make me stop crying!!!
PLS!!!! i wan to stop it... i wan to hurt my eyes no more!!!

i really miss my beee...

my bee feels that he has gt no life...
no more happiness with me...

WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE???
WHY CANT I GENERATE YOU MORE HAPPINESS
WHY CANT I BE HAPPY NOW
IM REALLY A FAILURE.....

seeing so many couples walking in the street
holding hands strolling
i miss that strong arm and warm hand...
where r u??

2nd of September 2011...
Friday night...
Some how sorted things out...
My life is nt a drama no body to film mi
Live my life liying!
加油啦！

Hv been crying hard for 2 nights...
On top of it sick...
Causing my ear in pain
When ever I cough it affects my ear!!!
My dear ear pls don be sick!!!
我还想听很多美好的声音！
I cried so much will anything happen to my eyes?
Haaaa
我还想看很多美好的事物！
My throat too!!!
Rahhhhhh
Booooooo

You know realli when u say u can't live without mi
I rmb I cried!!! Cuz I'm touched I'm feeling
So fortunate to hv someone who love mi
To have someone to depend on...
Now... I juz felt that it's losing...
Personally I realli think if wth that person u don hv any more happiness
Their fate has ended?

My friends bullied mi... Laugh abt mi...
Now I don hv anyone to lie my head on...
Perhaps the prob is realli mi...
I don deserve company???

Baby I'm feeling realli sad...
But if mi leaving u enable u to be happier
U n ur family hv better r/s...
I will do it....

I'm sad but at least u r happy
Don fail mi... U muz be happy

its really nice to cycle in the rain, with rain drops falling on your body tearing at the same time. The feeling is really great, its quite distressing. why am i crying? im crying for the wrong purpose, seeing people having fun on their Saturday going sentosa and all, why couldnt i be like them? Sometimes i really thought life can really be quite unfair. Filled with envy, a saturday is gone. A special day in a month is gone. It shouldnt be spent like this, im disappointed so are you. Deep down you are afraid you do not dare to speak up till now till this special day. Yes really i guess we needed some time. I need time to think if what i really want. Im shattered im not alright, no one understood me at all. NO ONE!

-----------------------------------------------------

you dont love me so does your mum
i know my mum loves me
i should love myself even more
since mon-wed why do i stress myself so much
rushing to ur place so that i can have more time with u?
we stay so near so this doesnt mean that we should meet up everyday
why do i have to listen to all this hurting things on this very day

i believe i could live alone... without you
the most i cycle myself to nearby places
the most i hv meal myself
the most i stay home on weekend

happy monthsary maybe the last mthsary?

i love u~

its for the better of me n u

bye

im hoping if only im still a young girl
able to go to my mum cuddled in her hug
tell her my suffering...
being protected by her...

in a marriage promise... its said that
the guy will protect his wife eternally
am i right?

HAVE YOU EVER FELT THAT...
FELT THAT WORDS CAN REALLY KILL?

ITS CREEPING BEHIND US...
MAKING ME FELT BAD SEEING "U"
AFFECTING MY R/S

I HAVE NV TOUGHT THAT THIS WILL MAKE US FALL APART...
THIS IS THE LAST THING I WANNA SEE THAT TEAR US APART...

I JUST TOUGHT IF THEY CANT GIVE US THEIR BLESSING, WHATS THE PT?

WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER ALONE...
YET YOU DOESNT KNOW...
IM NOT THE SORT WHO CAN FORGET EASILY
ESPECIALLY SUCH HURTFUL WORDS WHATS MORE FROM SOMEONE ELDERLY
SOMEONE WHOM WE RESPECT?

I REALLY FEEL LIKE TELLING MY MUM ABT THIS
BUT I DONT WANT TO TEAR IN FRONT OF HER...

ITS NO LONGER SOMETHING ABT ME CONTROLLING MY FEELINGS ALREADY
SOME HOW I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO FACE HER...

ITS CAUSING ME SADNESS AND ENDED UP CAUSING U MISERY
YEAH U DONT HAVE TO DESERVE THIS...
BUT DO I?
YOU HAVENT MARRY ME OVER YET...
IM NOT WITH UR SURNAME YET...

TALKING ABT FAIRNESS IN GENDER... SO THIS IS FAIR?

YEAH A SOLUTION TO SOLVE THIS?

YEAH... TEMPTATION IS EVERYWHERE... BUT IF THIS IS WRONG WOULD IT EVEN BE TEMPTATION?
WOULD IT EVEN CONSIDER TEMPTATION?
IT SHOULDNT BUT IT SHOULD NOT EVEN BE IN UR DICTIONERY...
IM REALLY WORRYING FOR MYSELF...

I DONT WANT HISTORY TO REPEAT ITSELF AGAIN...
ITS PROVEN THAT HISTORY CAN HAPPEN AGAIN... ITS IN GENETIC..
I DON BELIEVE... BUT AFTER WAD U HV SAID "TEMPTATION"
I REALLY DUNNO...IM SCARED

WHY SHOULD I EVEN CARE/BOTHERED ABT HER COMMENTS?

IF U WANNA LEAVE ME BEHIND READY TO LEAVE ME BEHIND...
TELL ME........

IF YOU NO LONGER LOVE ME...
TELL ME......

SHOULDNT FRIDAY BE
TGIF-Y DAY?

I WAS MADE TO BE A FOOL.....

IF YOU REALLY WANNA GIVE ME UP
SO BE IT...
U SIMPLY JUST FEEL THAT IM NOT WORTH HAVING I GUESS....

REALLY SAD...
I WILL REALLY REALLY TRY TO MOVE ON...
GIVE ME THE STRENGTH
I BEGGG

FRIDAY?
IS IT A FRIDAY?

SEEMS THAT ITS JUST LIKE ANY SAD MONDAY~

SCHOOL TONIGHT AT QUEENSTOWN...
RIGHT HANDBAG LEFT LAPTOP BAG

TIREDDDD
ANY HELPING HAND??

I really cry at the slightest...
this is one of the thing i hated about myself greatly!
because im not strong enough

Given the amount of love i put/have for this person
its no wonder im feeling so sad so disappointed so demoralize

You know at a lot of times i really felt like giving up
but i didnt...
no...... i CANT
because i love u too much.....

however you said it too simply
said it too harshly
said it too easily...

why did you give me up so easily?

even when im in the office its just so freaking hot...

remembering how you would fan me when the weather is hot...

im gonna start fanning myself...

if everything is my fault,
so be it...

cant imagine i cried myself to sleep,
a thick skin lady cried herself to sleep....
the more i hear the more i felt dirty...
didnt know im a thick skin girl in YOUR HEART...

it doesnt matter anymore...
anymore....

ITS MONDAY AGAIN

monday BLUEEEE

how BLUE can it goes?

way to go man-utd
great job~

u know you are really very cruel?
i cant imagine someone i love so much could says that im
thick skin got the cheek to call u blablabla....

come to think of it im really very pathetic!!!
pathetic liying please hang on... hang on there....

since you dont bother / care about me anymore

im back to square 1

thank you

you could have invited me to watch the match tgt
i guess u hated to see me that much...
hated to have me around
hated everything abt me...

i will miss watching soccer match with u...
DEFINITELY

seeing you rejoice over the match
while someone sitting at home awaiting for u
for ur voice
for ur call
for ur presence

i guess im born redundant
as of what u said....
couldnt accomplish anything...
couldnt get ur trust in accomplishing things...
someone not able to learn...

Your description of mi being thick skin
要不要脸 just kept revolving in my head...
I really really hope this is not from u
Not from u....
Not from some I love do much
I'm sorry to let u feel abused by me...
But these words from u r way too harsh
For Me to handle...
Way too much to handle for me...

thats y i guess im too lousy for ya...
oh god... let me learn
dont take away my cheerfulness bubbly me

Before i go to sleep i guess
these scene gonna repeat itself
no matter how much i want myself to go for a good night sleep
i couldnt

im struggling

so are u...
stuggling for an answer for me i guess

i dont wish for any of your answer
as i've understood

give me the strength tomorrow
for work...

no matter how much i misses u...
i will be in my heart it will nv be sent thru to u....

good night baby

DIDNT HAD A GREAT MOTHER DAY DINNER AT ALL

HOW AM I ABLE TO EAT PEACEFULLY HAPPILY HAVING ALL THOSE THOUGHTS IN MY MIND
THE AWFUL FEELING RIGHT IS SO PAINFUL THAT I WISH SOMEONE COULD
JUST TAKE IT AWAY
TAKE IT AWAY IMMEDIATELY...
ITS SO PAINFUL THAT IF IT COSTS MY LIFE I DONT MIND IT AT ALL
IM SERIOUS ABOUT IT

PEELING CEREAL PRAWNS MADE ME THINK OF ME
PEELING IT TO SOMEONE I LOVED MOST
I JUST HAD 3-4 MOUTHFUL OF RICE

ITS NOT GONNA BE EASY...
GRANT ME A SHOULDER NOW PLEASE
OR A HELPING HAND

WHERE R U RIGHT NOW,
HEARING YOU SAYS YOU DONT WISH TO SEE ME AT ALL
IS REALLY PAINFUL N HURTFUL
EVEN IF IM NOT THE ONE YOU WANT EVENTUALLY
OR EVEN IF IM NOT THE IDEAL ONE FOR YOU...
ITS STILL SO PAINFUL TO SOMEONE WHO LOVE YOU DEEPLY

THINKING OF FROM NOW ON I GOTTA DO ALL THE THINGS BY MYSELF
ITS JUST SO HARD TO ACCEPT...
YEAH THNKING OF HOW WE GOT TOGETHER TILL NOW
U NO LONGER WANTED TO CARE FOR ME
U NO LONGER WANTS TO TALK TO ME
U WANTS TO SEE ME NO MORE...

IM STARTING TO WONDER HOW CAN I CONCENTRATE AT WORK TML
ITS UNFAIR FOR U...
IM NOT SUITABLE FOR U
IM NOT THE IDEAL ONE YOU ARE SEARCHING FOR
IM NOT UR SOUL MATE...
I REALLY REALLY WISH ALL THIS IS NOT FROM YOUR HEART
IN YOUR HEART IM SO INCOMPETENT
IM A FAILURE...
I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO STAY IN UR HEART FOREVER

I KNOW U WANTED TO SAY THAT GOLDEN WORDS
SINCE YOU SAYS YOU DUNNO WAD U SHOULD DO...

I KNOW....
I KNOW....

IF ONLY...
IF ONLY COUPLES DOESNT QUARREL
IF ONLY MARRIAGE DOESNT EXISTS DIVORCE
IF ONLY....

I KNOW U WANTED TO GIVE UP...
SINCE LONG TIME AGO...
MAYBE...
MABE ITS TIME...
DEFINITELY I DONT WISH FOR THIS
BUT.... IM TIRED TOO...

I PRAY FOR UR CALL
I PRAY FOR UR VOICE
I PRAY FOR U TO APPEAR RIGHT BEFORE ME
I PRAY
I PRAY &
I PRAY.....

I gotten your message loud n clear...
U asking from the mighty power of Jesus to let u not
Get that flat... I heard ur prayer I heard u from my own pair of ear

U says it's a blessing...
From deep down in ur heart it's a blessing to u
My heart ache everytime I recall u saying these...
U envying other couple for their girl...
It's just so disheartening to hear all these
It's so overwhelming to hv this in my heart in my memory
I realli wish god almighty could take away my memory...
So that I wont be able to recollect this unwanted memory...
U know wad... I heard u loud n clear...
From today onwards I just got to get use to it again

I think I should just take it as it has nv started
From what I ask and your ' no answer ' I sort of knew ur ans

As long as u r relieve as long as u felt blessed...
That is the most I could do....
I just couldn't accomplish tasks given by u...
So that's the least I could do...

If this spells the end of it
I've got no strength more for any battle

I guess it's all destined
I should be alone
I have nv liked to be alone never ever
But if that's my lifeee...
I've got no strength to hang on any further

You mention it's the fact...
And asks if I can accept it....
I can't... But I hv no choice but to accept
Accept it with my whole heart!

I hang on to this far and u choose to end it
I watches cartoon and tears easily roll down
That is me... I'm waiting for ur comfort
But u choose to says I cry watching cartoon...
My words are cheap my tears are cheap to u

Lucky cheery u 2 are my most precious....

Its another friday....
emotionally feeling tired

tired tired tired

what you are transmitting is that u dont know exactly what i wanted

its 5:04pm

radio is playing 拼什么:-

我在拼 什么
wo zai pin shen me
在意什么最多
zai yi shen me zui duo

*人群走了灯光不再场地凌乱
ren qun zou le deng guang bu zai chang di ling luan
太多情绪咸得像汗想停很难
tai duo qing xu xian de xiang han xiang ting hen nan
讽刺怀疑总是很酸一路纠缠
feng ci huai yi zong shi hen suan yi lu jiu chan
冷眼冷语不看不管心却敏感
leng yan leng yu bu kan bu guan xin que min gan


路灯擦亮午夜车窗
lu deng ca liang wu ye che chuang
像泪光闪闪
xiang lei guang shan shan
想要跟谁温暖地交谈
xiang yao gen shei wen nuan de jiao tan
却只有 我和孤单
que zhi you wo he gu dan
早上匆匆忙忙出门时
zao shang cong cong mang mang chu men shi
好在有灯忘了关
hao zai you deng wang le guan
像谁坚持等了整夜
xiang shei jian chi deng le zheng ye
要给我陪伴
yao gei wo pei ban

我在拼 什么
wo zai pin shen me
在意什么最多
zai yi shen me zui duo
为了什么又累又寂寞
wei le shen me you lei you ji mo
不怕别人误会了
bu pa bie ren wu hui le
就怕最在乎的人 也不想懂
jiu pa zui zai hu de ren ye bu xiang dong

有些时候我会做梦
you xie shi hou wo hui zuo meng
盼望 回过头你在身后
pan wang hui guo tou ni zai shen hou
温柔看我 没有不快乐
wen rou kan wo mei you bu kuai le
没有逼我做抉择
mei you bi wo zuo jue ze
懂我拼什么
dong wo pin shen me
懂我最宝贝你了
dong wo zui bao bei ni le
(懂你让我 多 痛
dong ni rang wo duo tong )



I really really wish my phone would ring
either a call or sms
just 1 sms will be very good enough
1 sms from someone i valued most
1 sms from someone i loved most.....

"*HEARTBROKEN*"

懂我最宝贝你了...........

why make me one day happy
one day sad

im really over the moon yesterday night seeing those gifts
i am really...
i felt so cherish from the one i love so much

yet hearing harsh words tonight from the one i love so much
dont call me
don talk to me
throw/give away all the gifts that were for me
nothing to do and get scolding from me

do u know how pathetic i felt now
im crying so hard so so hard
no matter how many sms i sent you just didnt reply nor call back

the one i loved most ignored me
no one came to me
no one
none
tonight

savemehelpme

If i were to give up in the first place would i be happier?
Am i a QUITTER?
Would i find love if i gave up in the first place?
Would i be worse if i gave up in the first place?

SOMETIMES I JUST FELT SO TIRED
tired till in some point of time i dont know wad am i doing
tired till i dont know whats my feeling at all
not happy and probably too sad till no feeling of sadness?

Its my holiday right now
my last holiday :c
i really cant imagine myself not having any holiday at all after april!!!
basically i really treasure this 2 weeks of holiday!!!

right now im thinking why should i have taken up THIS ROUTE!!!
WHY WHY WHY WHY
WHERE HAS ALL THE SUPPORT GONE TO
WHERE HAS MY MOVTIVATION GONE TO!!!!

Im already trying to understand you
understand that u are all alone out there working overseas
but here i am stuck here during holiday
alright i can understand that im in my comfort zone
in my home with my family
but what do u think?
without you will life be the same as happy as when u are around me?
here i am thinking abt what good food and places you going to go
alright all i can declare is that im jealous

FORGET IT IM JUST NOT BEING UNDERSTOOD
NEVER HAD

Why do we have to always end our call this way
Why do i have to be call to always grow up
Why me

A cold rainy night with a sunken heart

Trying to be understanding to you
&
who is there to be understanding to me?

So much hardwork effort put in
yet nothing in return

TIRED CHEERY TIRED MEee