its really nice to cycle in the rain, with rain drops falling on your body tearing at the same time. The feeling is really great, its quite distressing. why am i crying? im crying for the wrong purpose, seeing people having fun on their Saturday going sentosa and all, why couldnt i be like them? Sometimes i really thought life can really be quite unfair. Filled with envy, a saturday is gone. A special day in a month is gone. It shouldnt be spent like this, im disappointed so are you. Deep down you are afraid you do not dare to speak up till now till this special day. Yes really i guess we needed some time. I need time to think if what i really want. Im shattered im not alright, no one understood me at all. NO ONE!

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you dont love me so does your mum
i know my mum loves me
i should love myself even more
since mon-wed why do i stress myself so much
rushing to ur place so that i can have more time with u?
we stay so near so this doesnt mean that we should meet up everyday
why do i have to listen to all this hurting things on this very day

i believe i could live alone... without you
the most i cycle myself to nearby places
the most i hv meal myself
the most i stay home on weekend

happy monthsary maybe the last mthsary?

i love u~

its for the better of me n u

bye