even when im in the office its just so freaking hot...

remembering how you would fan me when the weather is hot...

im gonna start fanning myself...

if everything is my fault,
so be it...

cant imagine i cried myself to sleep,
a thick skin lady cried herself to sleep....
the more i hear the more i felt dirty...
didnt know im a thick skin girl in YOUR HEART...

it doesnt matter anymore...
anymore....

ITS MONDAY AGAIN

monday BLUEEEE

how BLUE can it goes?

way to go man-utd
great job~

u know you are really very cruel?
i cant imagine someone i love so much could says that im
thick skin got the cheek to call u blablabla....

come to think of it im really very pathetic!!!
pathetic liying please hang on... hang on there....

since you dont bother / care about me anymore

im back to square 1

thank you

you could have invited me to watch the match tgt
i guess u hated to see me that much...
hated to have me around
hated everything abt me...

i will miss watching soccer match with u...
DEFINITELY

seeing you rejoice over the match
while someone sitting at home awaiting for u
for ur voice
for ur call
for ur presence

i guess im born redundant
as of what u said....
couldnt accomplish anything...
couldnt get ur trust in accomplishing things...
someone not able to learn...

Your description of mi being thick skin
要不要脸 just kept revolving in my head...
I really really hope this is not from u
Not from u....
Not from some I love do much
I'm sorry to let u feel abused by me...
But these words from u r way too harsh
For Me to handle...
Way too much to handle for me...

thats y i guess im too lousy for ya...
oh god... let me learn
dont take away my cheerfulness bubbly me

Before i go to sleep i guess
these scene gonna repeat itself
no matter how much i want myself to go for a good night sleep
i couldnt

im struggling

so are u...
stuggling for an answer for me i guess

i dont wish for any of your answer
as i've understood

give me the strength tomorrow
for work...

no matter how much i misses u...
i will be in my heart it will nv be sent thru to u....

good night baby

DIDNT HAD A GREAT MOTHER DAY DINNER AT ALL

HOW AM I ABLE TO EAT PEACEFULLY HAPPILY HAVING ALL THOSE THOUGHTS IN MY MIND
THE AWFUL FEELING RIGHT IS SO PAINFUL THAT I WISH SOMEONE COULD
JUST TAKE IT AWAY
TAKE IT AWAY IMMEDIATELY...
ITS SO PAINFUL THAT IF IT COSTS MY LIFE I DONT MIND IT AT ALL
IM SERIOUS ABOUT IT

PEELING CEREAL PRAWNS MADE ME THINK OF ME
PEELING IT TO SOMEONE I LOVED MOST
I JUST HAD 3-4 MOUTHFUL OF RICE

ITS NOT GONNA BE EASY...
GRANT ME A SHOULDER NOW PLEASE
OR A HELPING HAND

WHERE R U RIGHT NOW,
HEARING YOU SAYS YOU DONT WISH TO SEE ME AT ALL
IS REALLY PAINFUL N HURTFUL
EVEN IF IM NOT THE ONE YOU WANT EVENTUALLY
OR EVEN IF IM NOT THE IDEAL ONE FOR YOU...
ITS STILL SO PAINFUL TO SOMEONE WHO LOVE YOU DEEPLY

THINKING OF FROM NOW ON I GOTTA DO ALL THE THINGS BY MYSELF
ITS JUST SO HARD TO ACCEPT...
YEAH THNKING OF HOW WE GOT TOGETHER TILL NOW
U NO LONGER WANTED TO CARE FOR ME
U NO LONGER WANTS TO TALK TO ME
U WANTS TO SEE ME NO MORE...

IM STARTING TO WONDER HOW CAN I CONCENTRATE AT WORK TML
ITS UNFAIR FOR U...
IM NOT SUITABLE FOR U
IM NOT THE IDEAL ONE YOU ARE SEARCHING FOR
IM NOT UR SOUL MATE...
I REALLY REALLY WISH ALL THIS IS NOT FROM YOUR HEART
IN YOUR HEART IM SO INCOMPETENT
IM A FAILURE...
I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW TO STAY IN UR HEART FOREVER

I KNOW U WANTED TO SAY THAT GOLDEN WORDS
SINCE YOU SAYS YOU DUNNO WAD U SHOULD DO...

I KNOW....
I KNOW....

IF ONLY...
IF ONLY COUPLES DOESNT QUARREL
IF ONLY MARRIAGE DOESNT EXISTS DIVORCE
IF ONLY....

I KNOW U WANTED TO GIVE UP...
SINCE LONG TIME AGO...
MAYBE...
MABE ITS TIME...
DEFINITELY I DONT WISH FOR THIS
BUT.... IM TIRED TOO...

I PRAY FOR UR CALL
I PRAY FOR UR VOICE
I PRAY FOR U TO APPEAR RIGHT BEFORE ME
I PRAY
I PRAY &
I PRAY.....

I gotten your message loud n clear...
U asking from the mighty power of Jesus to let u not
Get that flat... I heard ur prayer I heard u from my own pair of ear

U says it's a blessing...
From deep down in ur heart it's a blessing to u
My heart ache everytime I recall u saying these...
U envying other couple for their girl...
It's just so disheartening to hear all these
It's so overwhelming to hv this in my heart in my memory
I realli wish god almighty could take away my memory...
So that I wont be able to recollect this unwanted memory...
U know wad... I heard u loud n clear...
From today onwards I just got to get use to it again

I think I should just take it as it has nv started
From what I ask and your ' no answer ' I sort of knew ur ans

As long as u r relieve as long as u felt blessed...
That is the most I could do....
I just couldn't accomplish tasks given by u...
So that's the least I could do...

If this spells the end of it
I've got no strength more for any battle

I guess it's all destined
I should be alone
I have nv liked to be alone never ever
But if that's my lifeee...
I've got no strength to hang on any further

You mention it's the fact...
And asks if I can accept it....
I can't... But I hv no choice but to accept
Accept it with my whole heart!

I hang on to this far and u choose to end it
I watches cartoon and tears easily roll down
That is me... I'm waiting for ur comfort
But u choose to says I cry watching cartoon...
My words are cheap my tears are cheap to u

Lucky cheery u 2 are my most precious....