It's 7th day...
Seven day of silence....
I wanna know
I wanna know wad r u thinking
I wanna what have u tought of
I wanna know what is ur inner feeling....

Each hour each day is doubled up
Not hearing anything from you, means u r feeling gd?
I trusted... I tought u will give me a ring on thurs...
Actually till now I hv the feeling you WILL call later at 10pm....
What if u don't?

Life is really unfair...

I really hope I hv the courage to die...
To disappear from this worldddd
Forever

Getting hooked onto Olivia Ong song
"Ready for love"

The Motion Video was cute too
olivia ong was one of our favourite singer
You listening to this?

Thursday is here soon...
5th Day ending...
6th Day coming....

How are you, hope you are eating well, sheltered not under the rain

11:11

somehow this thing struck me when im on train just now
on my way home from sch...
in everything, it takes 2 to clap
I did not do my part well that results you in not being any more happier
results in you not being more happier with me
Im a failure... Im a burden...
giving me up is the wise choice?

5th Day, im not crying heavily.... just sobbing a little
Buttttt....


I DO HOPE I CAN FOREVER BE YOUR BABY
TRULY YOUR BABY
<3

On the way home after class...
Soooo hungry!!!!
Oh my... faint at home not in public!!!!

Wednesday is waving at us already....
you waving at me?

How could you be so cruel?
not a single breath i hear from u...
not a single word or text
im starting to wonder....
wonderingggg

it it?
you sure?

Who do you treat me as?
i wanna know what are u thinking

did i cross your mind?
yeah i should be mature...
these stuffs are immature isit?

4th day since we see each other
4th day since we talked...

You say you don't know what you want...
so you dont know whether you want me or not?
I TRUSTED... I TRUSTED YOU
so i didnt wanna disturb you...
i trusted you will call me eventually
I TRUST YOU...

I TRUST THAT YOU ARE BUSY
I TRUST THAT YOU ARE THINKING
CAN I STILL TRUST THAT IM IN YOUR HEART STILL?
I TRUST BUT TELL ME...

i found out that to ease my agony... the best medicine is sleep
when im in deep sleep i do not think of anything...

my mum bought me a liang cha
how i wish its from you
im fantasizing you asking me "are you okay"

if these are not going to happen soon, make me sleep...
make me fall into a deep sleep....

LUCKY are you missing me?
CHEERY are you missing me?

How should i do
What should i do

i realize something when i woke up today...
i wasnt feeling anything when im asleep
but when the moment i open my eyes/wake up
the first thing came to my mind was you
the next second was a sigh....
heart feeling heavy sinking to the bottom of the bed...

but when im asleep i have gt no feel at all...
i love to be asleep for this period of time...
if only i could sleep and sleep and sleep for this period of time...

wake me up when nightmare is over

Monday is coming to an end........
its a lonely night a very very lonely night
looking at my phone while night
waiting for it to ring waiting for it to beep

it never ring it never beep....

im waiting.... waiting for u.....

busy with work?

im missing u....
i really cant bear....


have you found ur answer?
have i found my answer?
u are so near... yet soooo far.....
seeing u online yet i cant shout to u BABY..
standing downstair your place yet i cant call you BABY
standing outside your place yet i cant reach out to ur door bell
standing outside not knowing if we are just walls away
standing downstair ur place wondering if we are juz streets away...
staring at my phone browsing our photos in my phone
yet couldnt call you to say BABY HOWS WORK HOWS UR DAY


the pain is tearing me apart

MY LOVE

HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY... THAT I LOVE YOU....
this song....

Hello Monday...

when can i stop wearing spect!!!!

hahahahahaa~

let my work drown me...
but can your words get out of me while work drowning me?

radio playing david tao song a while ago...
made me think of u too~
haizzzz

you still remember how you said to me that
you cant live without me for even half a day...
so how can you leave me for more den a day...
somehow this is wad u mention/says before...

what about now?

LIGHT UP MY DARKNESS

LIGHT IT UP

LIGHT IT UP FOR ME

IM VERY AFRAID OF DARKNESS
ITS VERY VERY DARK.....

PLEASE LIGHT UP THE DARK

i came but u are not around...
seeing ur slipper outside the door
seeing ur room not lighted up
seeing ur bicycle outside your door step

how is ur dinner...

went for cycling a while...
im afraid if i cycle far my tyre would go out of air in the long run
and i wouldnt be able to go out for a cycle...
its sad isnt it...
i find it so silly to be thinking this way...

i will and forever be by your side when u are sick...
im not feeling good now, would u be by my side?
how could u not contact me over the past 2 days?
do u know how am feeling now?

im so hungry and lonely at home now
standing outside ur house yet no one is at home
or no one to open the door for me
im feeling realli lousy right now...

how are u and ur lively life???
actually its quite worth it... my sadness in exchange
with ur lively life
its really worth it... despite mi in real pain...

i was so silly to cycle to ur place... why would i do that...
juz couldnt control my leg

friday slp was quite a torture woke up to go for sch
sch ended at 6pm
came back...
do u know i've been waiting really waiting... any wadasapp tone
sms tone ring tone... im so looking forward to ur face name display
on my phone...

i nv expect we would be like this now
you spending ur own time i spending my own time
when we are not quarreling... its all the small quarrels
that build up to today...
i trusted u...
i really trusted u....
but whyyyy

every corner of the place we went before tgt
ur laughter is in my heart
looking at things we ate tgt
your image ur smile is in me..
but i turn around u are not beside me
when i smell someone with your perfume...
i've always hope u are juz beside me
i wish i could juz lie on ur shoulder n smell ur perfume...
u are in my heart 24/7 every hr min sec
but when i look around u are not around me at all....

i really really dunno how to survive tml....
oh dear...

do u know that i have this tought that its ok that my fren
dont care about me... bully me..
cause i have you...
but right now... i really dunno who is with me...
who is still with me....

Beeee just 2 days for me is like a week? a mth?
i don wanna do through this further...
I DONT WANT

:'C

i was looking into my fridge
saw a bag of apples....
it made me cry, reminds me of our apple juice...

would u be like me? seeing things and start thinking abt me?
start thinking abt our memories?

how can our memories be so easily be said as no happiness
how can our memories be so easily be conceded by you saying u hv no life

its 330 pm soon... when u wake up seeing im not by your bedside
would u feel odd would u think of me?
would u feel sad not seeing me?

how could u feel nth at all...

i felt so weak... pls gv me strength
i don wish to cry during my work...
seeing that photo infron of me on my work desk
easily make mi tear....

why and how should this thing happen on us?
BABY WHERE R U........

I was looking at ur blog posting
on your australia trip coming back sg...
u says daniel powter next plane home was a song that describe ur feeling
the lyrics says:
And you’re, you’re the only face I wanna see
That’s why I gonna be on the next plane home

now don u wanna see my face???

.....sobbing away again.....

給我一個理由忘記

A-LIN 給我一個理由忘記


雨都停了
yu dou ting le
这片天灰什么呢
zhe pian tian hui shen me ne
我还记得
wo hai ji de
你说我们要快乐
ni shuo wo men yao kuai le

深夜里的脚步声
shen ye li de jiao bu sheng
总是刺耳
zong shi ci er
害怕寂寞
hai pa ji mo
就让狂欢的城市陪我关灯
jiu rang kuang huan de cheng shi pei wo guan deng

只是哪怕周围再多人
zhi shi na pa zhou wei zai duo ren
感觉还是一个人
gan jue hai shi yi ge ren
每当我笑了
mei dang wo xiao le
心却狠狠的哭著
xin que hen hen de ku zhe

给我一个理由忘记
gei wo yi ge li you wang ji
那么爱我的你
na me ai wo de ni
给我一个理由放弃
gei wo yi ge li you fang qi
当时做的决定
dang shi zuo de jue ding
有些爱 越想抽离却越更清
you xie ai yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing，xi
而最痛的距离 是你不在身边
er zui tong de ju li shi ni bu zai shen bian
却在我的心里
que zai wo de xin li

当我走在去过的每个地方
dang wo zou zai qu guo de mei ge di fang
总会听到你那最自由的笑
zong hui ting dao ni na zui zi you de xiao
当我回到一个人住的地方
dang wo hui dao yi ge ren zhu de di fang
最怕看到冬天你最爱穿的那
zui pa kan dao dong tian ni zui ai chuan de na
件外套
jian wai tao

只是哪怕周围再多人
zhi shi na pa zhou wei zai duo ren
感觉还是一个人
gan jue hai shi yi ge ren
每当我笑了
mei dang wo xiao le
心却狠狠的哭著
xin que hen hen de ku zhe

给我一个理由忘记
gei wo yi ge li you wang ji
那么爱我的你
na me ai wo de ni
给我一个理由放弃
gei wo yi ge li you fang qi
当时做的决定
dang shi zuo de jue ding
有些爱
you xie ai
越想抽离却越更清晰
yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing xi
而最痛的距离 是你不在身边
er zui tong de ju li shi ni bu zai shen bian
却在我的心里
que zai wo de xin li

我找不到理由忘记
wo zhao bu dao li you wang ji
大雨里的别离
da yu li de bie li
我找不到理由放弃
wo zhao bu dao li you fang qi
我等你的决心
wo deng ni de jue xin
有些爱
you xie ai
越想抽离却越更清晰
yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing xi
而最痛的距离
er zui tong de ju li
是你不在身边 却在我的心里
shi ni bu zai shen bian que zai wo de xin li
我想你
wo xiang ni

I once posted :
Encryption.... J MPWF ZPV (I LOVE YOU)

you once posted :
J MPWF ZPV UPP (I LOVE YOU TOO)

at that point of time i was really really delighted
i was in the middle of the class...
i remembered vividly when i look at your reply a smile just appeared...
a rainbow just came up in my heart...
made me felt so happy in class... nt feeling tired in class

i rmb this vividly cause its really happiness...
true happinessss

but what you said ytd.. 2nd sept 2011 friday night....
just made all this unclear untrue but those happiness are so real...
i really wish you could reply or post
J MPWF ZPV UPP
again...

SERIOUS...

what is all this about? what are u thinking abt? fair to me?
it just made me go back to 3 years ago when you MIA and came back
when we are at the bishan reservoir...
you dunno wad u wan... blablabla

I am very afraid of the period of MIA days...
that is y i called so many times...
hv u ever understand this part
hv u stand in my shoe?
that period of MIA days... was realli realli BAD!!!!
i look at my calendar at that time where i put a love onto it
i look again where i put a heartbroken sign...
i juz cried... in office... its realli bad... as bad as i feel like
DIEING!!!
somehow is those days coming???
somehow i sense it...
tell me i have a wrong sense....

i fear when i call ur phone... its already overseas tone....

my eyes are in pain..
cant rub too hard...
due to too much crying....
its bad to my eyes... realli... make me stop crying!!!
PLS!!!! i wan to stop it... i wan to hurt my eyes no more!!!

i really miss my beee...

my bee feels that he has gt no life...
no more happiness with me...

WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE???
WHY CANT I GENERATE YOU MORE HAPPINESS
WHY CANT I BE HAPPY NOW
IM REALLY A FAILURE.....

seeing so many couples walking in the street
holding hands strolling
i miss that strong arm and warm hand...
where r u??

2nd of September 2011...
Friday night...
Some how sorted things out...
My life is nt a drama no body to film mi
Live my life liying!
加油啦！

Hv been crying hard for 2 nights...
On top of it sick...
Causing my ear in pain
When ever I cough it affects my ear!!!
My dear ear pls don be sick!!!
我还想听很多美好的声音！
I cried so much will anything happen to my eyes?
Haaaa
我还想看很多美好的事物！
My throat too!!!
Rahhhhhh
Booooooo

You know realli when u say u can't live without mi
I rmb I cried!!! Cuz I'm touched I'm feeling
So fortunate to hv someone who love mi
To have someone to depend on...
Now... I juz felt that it's losing...
Personally I realli think if wth that person u don hv any more happiness
Their fate has ended?

My friends bullied mi... Laugh abt mi...
Now I don hv anyone to lie my head on...
Perhaps the prob is realli mi...
I don deserve company???

Baby I'm feeling realli sad...
But if mi leaving u enable u to be happier
U n ur family hv better r/s...
I will do it....

I'm sad but at least u r happy
Don fail mi... U muz be happy