its really nice to cycle in the rain, with rain drops falling on your body tearing at the same time. The feeling is really great, its quite distressing. why am i crying? im crying for the wrong purpose, seeing people having fun on their Saturday going sentosa and all, why couldnt i be like them? Sometimes i really thought life can really be quite unfair. Filled with envy, a saturday is gone. A special day in a month is gone. It shouldnt be spent like this, im disappointed so are you. Deep down you are afraid you do not dare to speak up till now till this special day. Yes really i guess we needed some time. I need time to think if what i really want. Im shattered im not alright, no one understood me at all. NO ONE!

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you dont love me so does your mum
i know my mum loves me
i should love myself even more
since mon-wed why do i stress myself so much
rushing to ur place so that i can have more time with u?
we stay so near so this doesnt mean that we should meet up everyday
why do i have to listen to all this hurting things on this very day

i believe i could live alone... without you
the most i cycle myself to nearby places
the most i hv meal myself
the most i stay home on weekend

happy monthsary maybe the last mthsary?

i love u~

its for the better of me n u

bye

im hoping if only im still a young girl
able to go to my mum cuddled in her hug
tell her my suffering...
being protected by her...

in a marriage promise... its said that
the guy will protect his wife eternally
am i right?

HAVE YOU EVER FELT THAT...
FELT THAT WORDS CAN REALLY KILL?

ITS CREEPING BEHIND US...
MAKING ME FELT BAD SEEING "U"
AFFECTING MY R/S

I HAVE NV TOUGHT THAT THIS WILL MAKE US FALL APART...
THIS IS THE LAST THING I WANNA SEE THAT TEAR US APART...

I JUST TOUGHT IF THEY CANT GIVE US THEIR BLESSING, WHATS THE PT?

WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER ALONE...
YET YOU DOESNT KNOW...
IM NOT THE SORT WHO CAN FORGET EASILY
ESPECIALLY SUCH HURTFUL WORDS WHATS MORE FROM SOMEONE ELDERLY
SOMEONE WHOM WE RESPECT?

I REALLY FEEL LIKE TELLING MY MUM ABT THIS
BUT I DONT WANT TO TEAR IN FRONT OF HER...

ITS NO LONGER SOMETHING ABT ME CONTROLLING MY FEELINGS ALREADY
SOME HOW I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO FACE HER...

ITS CAUSING ME SADNESS AND ENDED UP CAUSING U MISERY
YEAH U DONT HAVE TO DESERVE THIS...
BUT DO I?
YOU HAVENT MARRY ME OVER YET...
IM NOT WITH UR SURNAME YET...

TALKING ABT FAIRNESS IN GENDER... SO THIS IS FAIR?

YEAH A SOLUTION TO SOLVE THIS?

YEAH... TEMPTATION IS EVERYWHERE... BUT IF THIS IS WRONG WOULD IT EVEN BE TEMPTATION?
WOULD IT EVEN CONSIDER TEMPTATION?
IT SHOULDNT BUT IT SHOULD NOT EVEN BE IN UR DICTIONERY...
IM REALLY WORRYING FOR MYSELF...

I DONT WANT HISTORY TO REPEAT ITSELF AGAIN...
ITS PROVEN THAT HISTORY CAN HAPPEN AGAIN... ITS IN GENETIC..
I DON BELIEVE... BUT AFTER WAD U HV SAID "TEMPTATION"
I REALLY DUNNO...IM SCARED

WHY SHOULD I EVEN CARE/BOTHERED ABT HER COMMENTS?

IF U WANNA LEAVE ME BEHIND READY TO LEAVE ME BEHIND...
TELL ME........

IF YOU NO LONGER LOVE ME...
TELL ME......

SHOULDNT FRIDAY BE
TGIF-Y DAY?

I WAS MADE TO BE A FOOL.....

IF YOU REALLY WANNA GIVE ME UP
SO BE IT...
U SIMPLY JUST FEEL THAT IM NOT WORTH HAVING I GUESS....

REALLY SAD...
I WILL REALLY REALLY TRY TO MOVE ON...
GIVE ME THE STRENGTH
I BEGGG

FRIDAY?
IS IT A FRIDAY?

SEEMS THAT ITS JUST LIKE ANY SAD MONDAY~

SCHOOL TONIGHT AT QUEENSTOWN...
RIGHT HANDBAG LEFT LAPTOP BAG

TIREDDDD
ANY HELPING HAND??

I really cry at the slightest...
this is one of the thing i hated about myself greatly!
because im not strong enough

Given the amount of love i put/have for this person
its no wonder im feeling so sad so disappointed so demoralize

You know at a lot of times i really felt like giving up
but i didnt...
no...... i CANT
because i love u too much.....

however you said it too simply
said it too harshly
said it too easily...

why did you give me up so easily?