Its another friday....
emotionally feeling tired

tired tired tired

what you are transmitting is that u dont know exactly what i wanted

its 5:04pm

radio is playing 拼什么:-

我在拼 什么
wo zai pin shen me
在意什么最多
zai yi shen me zui duo

*人群走了灯光不再场地凌乱
ren qun zou le deng guang bu zai chang di ling luan
太多情绪咸得像汗想停很难
tai duo qing xu xian de xiang han xiang ting hen nan
讽刺怀疑总是很酸一路纠缠
feng ci huai yi zong shi hen suan yi lu jiu chan
冷眼冷语不看不管心却敏感
leng yan leng yu bu kan bu guan xin que min gan


路灯擦亮午夜车窗
lu deng ca liang wu ye che chuang
像泪光闪闪
xiang lei guang shan shan
想要跟谁温暖地交谈
xiang yao gen shei wen nuan de jiao tan
却只有 我和孤单
que zhi you wo he gu dan
早上匆匆忙忙出门时
zao shang cong cong mang mang chu men shi
好在有灯忘了关
hao zai you deng wang le guan
像谁坚持等了整夜
xiang shei jian chi deng le zheng ye
要给我陪伴
yao gei wo pei ban

我在拼 什么
wo zai pin shen me
在意什么最多
zai yi shen me zui duo
为了什么又累又寂寞
wei le shen me you lei you ji mo
不怕别人误会了
bu pa bie ren wu hui le
就怕最在乎的人 也不想懂
jiu pa zui zai hu de ren ye bu xiang dong

有些时候我会做梦
you xie shi hou wo hui zuo meng
盼望 回过头你在身后
pan wang hui guo tou ni zai shen hou
温柔看我 没有不快乐
wen rou kan wo mei you bu kuai le
没有逼我做抉择
mei you bi wo zuo jue ze
懂我拼什么
dong wo pin shen me
懂我最宝贝你了
dong wo zui bao bei ni le
(懂你让我 多 痛
dong ni rang wo duo tong )



I really really wish my phone would ring
either a call or sms
just 1 sms will be very good enough
1 sms from someone i valued most
1 sms from someone i loved most.....

"*HEARTBROKEN*"

懂我最宝贝你了...........

why make me one day happy
one day sad

im really over the moon yesterday night seeing those gifts
i am really...
i felt so cherish from the one i love so much

yet hearing harsh words tonight from the one i love so much
dont call me
don talk to me
throw/give away all the gifts that were for me
nothing to do and get scolding from me

do u know how pathetic i felt now
im crying so hard so so hard
no matter how many sms i sent you just didnt reply nor call back

the one i loved most ignored me
no one came to me
no one
none
tonight

savemehelpme

If i were to give up in the first place would i be happier?
Am i a QUITTER?
Would i find love if i gave up in the first place?
Would i be worse if i gave up in the first place?

SOMETIMES I JUST FELT SO TIRED
tired till in some point of time i dont know wad am i doing
tired till i dont know whats my feeling at all
not happy and probably too sad till no feeling of sadness?

Its my holiday right now
my last holiday :c
i really cant imagine myself not having any holiday at all after april!!!
basically i really treasure this 2 weeks of holiday!!!

right now im thinking why should i have taken up THIS ROUTE!!!
WHY WHY WHY WHY
WHERE HAS ALL THE SUPPORT GONE TO
WHERE HAS MY MOVTIVATION GONE TO!!!!

Im already trying to understand you
understand that u are all alone out there working overseas
but here i am stuck here during holiday
alright i can understand that im in my comfort zone
in my home with my family
but what do u think?
without you will life be the same as happy as when u are around me?
here i am thinking abt what good food and places you going to go
alright all i can declare is that im jealous

FORGET IT IM JUST NOT BEING UNDERSTOOD
NEVER HAD

Why do we have to always end our call this way
Why do i have to be call to always grow up
Why me

A cold rainy night with a sunken heart

Trying to be understanding to you
&
who is there to be understanding to me?

So much hardwork effort put in
yet nothing in return

TIRED CHEERY TIRED MEee